What is maturity? If I would still , at this age, feel torn between my feelings and thoughts, then when will I be mature enough to be so decisive about my needs and my future? I’m tired and my patience is running out! But still, having that hope! A hope that I wish to kill and whenever I think that I succeeded in numbing it, it would come back so strong in a form of depression and frustration:( where are you my match? Do u truly exist?